so this makes me really want to download the rest of season 2 so I'm all ready for season 3...

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Current Location: computer room
Current Mood: tired

I feel so alone tonight.

I feel like no one cares about me.

I want someone to cuddle with me and tell me everything will be ok.

Current Mood: lonely

Please hold me tightly, I don't care if I can breathe tonight.
Forget these lungs, their jealousy
I'm burning out, but I can't leave this all behind (leave this all behind)
Leave this all behind (leave this all behind)
Forget these lungs, their jealousy
I'm burning out, but I can't leave this all behind


And I will wait until the end
When the pendulum will swing back to the
Darker side of our hearts bleeding
I will save this empty space
Next to me like its a grave
Where I lay a place for us to sleep eternally together


I just wanted you to know
I think about you every night
When I fall asleep
I just wanted you to know
I think about you every night
When I fall asleep
You are in my dreams
And just like in a movie
The one you want to see
With a happy ending


there's no-one left in the world
that i can hold onto
there is really no-one left at all
there is only you

Fate fell short this time
Your smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna


Alone with you, alone with me
What can I do, I can not breath
My heart is torn, for all to see
Alone with you, alone with me.


Always by Blink 182
I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am
I'm trying
So here I am
Are you ready

Come on let me hold you
Touch you
Feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always

And I'll miss your laugh your smile
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights
I hate them
Lets start this again for real


Cut the skin to the bone
Fall asleep all alone
Hear your voice in the dark
Lose myself in your eyes
Choke my voice
Say goodnight as the world falls apart
Fuck I can't let this kill me
Let go
I need some more time to fix this


I'm talking to the ceiling
My life just lost all meaning
Do one thing for me tonight
I'm dying in this silence
The last star left in heaven
Is falling down to earth and
Do you still feel the same way
Do you still feel the same way


Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am
I'm lost without you


Sometimes we get second chances
And sometimes we never make it past the first
It really makes you wonder why somethings happen when they do
It really makes me wonder why it wasn't me instead of you


When you're all alone,
and you need a light,
someone to guide you through the night,
just remember that I am here,
to hold you close and dry your tears.


Someone old
No one new
Feeling borrowed
always blue
Someone old
No one new
Always borrowed
Always you


So tell me what you want cause I would give you anything
Tell me what you need and I’ll go get it
I’d give up all these dreams to have you in my arms right now
I’d give up everything and I'd forget it

Tags: life
Current Location: shane's room
Current Mood: weird
Current Music: 50 cent i guess

I really don't right anything interesting in my LJ but it has occured to me that the internet is much smaller than we all think and it's very easy to find people on here. I'd just like to go back to knowing who is reading my journal. So if you read my journal and we aren't already friends let me know and I can add you.

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Tags: life
Current Mood: dorky

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now,
please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of
you and me. It can be anything you want -- good or bad -- BUT IT HAS TO
BE FAKE.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on
your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T
ACTUALLY remember about you.

Tags: meme

Your 2005 Song Is

Since You've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson "But since you've been gone I can breathe for the first time I'm so moving on" In 2005, you moved on.

Tags: meme

Took this from Kayla...

Fun bold this statement if it's true thing. ( DO IT! )

Current Mood: blah

Sorry I haven't been commenting on everyone's entries for a few days. I don't want to get into details but I contributed to something that probably caused me to lose a friend. Anyway, it's been a bad few days but I need to get back to normal so I'll start commenting again :)

Not much else to say. I'm into season 2 of my Buffy marathon. I don't know if I've ever watched them all in a row. It's very exciting.

Tags: life
Current Mood: lethargic

I'm a horrible person.

Last night I went to an NA meeting. I'm not an addict but it was very interesting. The one huge thing I took out of it is to take advantage of the now and to take chances. Anyway it was good.

Afterwards I went and stayed at Shane's house. Did the cuddling thing. That was good too. I think I'm even more confused then I was before. I don't fall for guys very often. Of course I choose the one with the girlfriend. I am so messed up. I feel bad for myself, I don't like feeling that way. I'm very lost and I'm definately going to get hurt in the end. I know that but I can't help how I feel about someone. No matter how many people tell me it's wrong I can't help it. So that's not good lol.

Also good. I had coffee with Brent today. He's my favorite Seattle gay boy. I haven't seen him in forever. I missed him. Note to self: see Brent more.

I'm going to go lay in bed and watch Buffy in an attempt to not think about anything. Ya right. Good luck to me on that pssh!

Tags: boys, life
Current Mood: uncomfortable